A Transgender Story Chapter 15

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A Transgender Story Chapter 15

By Ms Chor Lor | June 30, 2009 | 821 views

Actually my story should be touching on my army life now, but because all these are my life of so many years ago, so sometimes I may miss out some parts. As I write, I try my best to recall the sequences of the events and storyline. So sometimes I may leave out some parts and have to rewind back again.

In today’s chapter, I’m rewinding it back to a part which I also can’t remember when, the story of my second boyfriend.

The time that I was with him, I was more of a sissy gay, having slight long hair, taking hormones on and off, but still dress in guy mode at most times. This period should be somewhere between after quitting school and before going into army.

And if you follow my story, the first BF was during school days.

Anyway he is a gay too. Let’s call him G.

I got to know him through some other gay friends. We didn’t talk much on the first meeting. And my impression of him wasn’t much either. But I could tell from his age that he is definitely older than me.

The second time we met again, we talked a bit more. And only after talking, did we then realise that we are actually staying just opposite each other! he just stays across the street from my block, by walking over an overhead bridge!

We exchanged number and we kept in contact often since then on. He was 10 years older than me. I think I was about 17 or 18 that time if I did not remember wrongly. He was working as a restaurant floor manager with a stable income. He stayed in his own flat.

Soon, we became an item. I would often walked over to his stay and often stay the night over. Sometimes, he works till very late. Even so, if he wishes to see me, he will still ask me over.

We would watch TV together. He likes to keep kois and had a whole fish tank of kois. Sometimes, we will change and clean the tank together. On his off days, we will go out for movies, shopping and going here and there. We were together for about a year plus in total.

He would often buy small gifts for me and I did the same too. I think I should be working at Taka at that time.

He was the first guy who did something that touched my heart so much. And which I find it very romantic.

It was about half a year into our relationship when it happened. Due to his hectic and long working schedules, the time he spent with me became less. Sometimes, I won’t even get to see him for more than weeks.

Until one day, I finally felt that he had neglected me too much and decided to leave him. I wrote a letter and place it at his home.

He called him after reading that letter. But I did not answer. I think at about the 3rd day, I was on my way home from work. When I reached my house downstairs, he was sitting there waiting for me…………..!!!

He said he wanted to talk to me. He apologize for neglecting me and promise to find more time with me. He wanted to patch back with me. I really felt so touched at that time. And because being a ‘passive’, being the ‘woman’, of course my heart melted by such a romantic gesture and forgave him lah!

We were together again. And as promised, he did spent more time with me.

I think it was towards the one year of our relationship, that I starts going strong on my hormones again. Because I’m going to army and I want to make myself more feminine.

So one day while on bed, he touched my chest…………….he felt the bulge……he asked me…………….”are you taking those kind of female hormones?”

I was kind of surprised he actually knows about hormones. I told him yes. He tried to jokingly brush it off by telling me “you siao ar. you want to be woman is it?” Then he went to sleep.

I could sense that he minds it a lot. Like I have talked about before, being a gay, they can like a sissy gay. But once we stepped out of the region and goes more onto the female borders, they will not like us anymore. And by having a female breasts, you are definitely not a sissy gay guy anymore…………..

From that day onwards, he became cold towards me. He would either never reply my calls or will brush it off with he’s busy. In fact, I think we never met up anymore since that day.

Until finally the day came……………..

I will always remember that day…………..

I called him at his house. He answered the call. But he pretends to be his ‘brother’ and said “G is not in. He went overseas. I’m his brother.”

I know he stays alone. And I recognise his voice. He was obviously lying right into my ears!

I walked over to his flat. I went to the opposite block where I could see into his flat. I saw him with my own eyes, he was right inside. I was angry. Why did he lie to me……………..and I just knew it, my hormones…………….

I walked over to his house. i did not knocked on the door first. I actually eavesdrop from outside and guess what I heard………………..he was making love to another guy……………two voices…………..happily…………

I was so furious……………I wanted to knock at his door and confronted him straight………………I did not.

I sat by the stairs and cried a lot. I realize I can’t blame him. I chose to be a woman, I chose to take hormones. I should have expected this day coming……..

I left and went home. Since then, we never hear from each other again…………

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